when I was little me n my cousin who was my age always messed with each other sayn "let me see urs n ill let u see mine" type of thing. so thats how I 1st saw the "lady parts" @ an early age. soon my other cousin (her sister) got in on it. she was older by 4 yrs. well she took it 2 another level. she let me feel her tits and rode me (with clothes on) and told me "this is what grown ups do". all this was happening between the age of 6-10. well that pretty much stopped after awhile but when I was like 14 I had another cousin that had an attraction 2 me. she was 3 yrs younger than me but a lot more "wild". anyway went a lot further than me n my other 2 cousins did. she would stay the night, and my mom, not really thinkn anything like that would be goin on, let us sleep n the same bed. she jerked me off and played with my dick a lot and let me rub my dick against her pussy but I never penetrated. well that went on for a couple of yrs. when I was about 15 goin on 16 i had a guy friend that talked me into tryn things with him. I guess I was weak minded or sumthing. he gave me blow jobs a lot and asked me 2 repay the favor. so I tried it for about a min and said I didn't like doin it. he said that was cool and never tried askn me again. that was pretty much my weird childhood. fast forward 2 about 12 yrs ago. I had a gay friend (got all kinds of different friends) that pretty much molested me. we were drinking 1 night and I passes out only 2 wake up with him sucking my dick. the thing is, I didn't stop him, I let him do his thing and acted like I was still passed out. jump to present day...I have a gf ive been with for 10yrs now. everyrhings good. lifes great. I try to block out the past becuz it really does sicken me thay I let a guy suck my dick and that I actually put a dick n my fuckn mouth...getn mad just typing this...but I dont mind the shit I did with my cousins. am I fucked up or did I get taken advantage of or what. im not gay...I luv pussy. so what do yall think?