A guy thing... turning a bit wrong..maybe?
Posted Sep 1, 2011 by anonymous | 745 views | 7 comments
Hello, this is my first time using site and I really hope to confess something in confidence knowing that nothing will happen from it. I mean I am really scared to post this story but, I do want some adivice, please don't be mean to be, I swear I'm not a bad guy. Ok, the truth I wanted to say is that since the age of 13 I masturbrate. I just remember feeling so "strange" down their one time and just wanting to touch it. I had kind of just starting high school and girls suddeningly started to look much more appealing to me. It's just that I felt that masturbrating is wrong, I don't no why. I just do. I didn't want my raging hormones to get the better of me and suddeningly end up having underage sex or raping a girl of my age. Not that I think I would go that far, but who knows? The thing is, I really want to stop, but find it hard. I mean as anyone who has had an orgasm might know, its a very intoxicating feeling and addicting. I masturbrate over girls facebook pictures and I feel that its plain wrong in some respects. I wouldn't know how they would react if they found out. I always try to pretend to be the guy who in "innocent" minded and stuff, but the truth is I feel "dirty" because of what I do. God knows what my mum would of she found out! (asian background). I understand that's normal, healthy etc but.... that's not quite the end of the story... I don't want to be judged but something more has been happening during my usual "private sessions" At 14 I moved to a new area and met the neighbours. They had 3 kids: girl aged 9, boy aged 10 and another aged 14. I obvisously befriended the boys but didn't quite want to befriend the sister quite yet. Anyway, I began to noticed that I started to get a crush on her. At first I ignored it, but later it got more and more apparent. I think maybe it had to do with the fact she was my type of girl in look (blonde hair, blue eyes, freckles etc). I reminded myself that she is 9 and I am 14 and that something like this is quite wrong. At the time there was a girl in my school who looked very similar to her that I liked but found it hard to approach. Anyway to contain my lust of the girl on our block I "did i over her" during my "happy time." I'm now 18 and looking back on this feel like....like.... I don't know!!! I don't want to be a peadophile or anything like that... I don't want to. I just realy don't know what to do. I mean I did chat to her eventually and we kind of become friends, I've been left alone to her, gone swimming with her and never touched her in any indecent way...honest! But, I used to think about it. Well the family moved away anyway, so I felt rather relieved, but at my current age (18) I have noticed that my physical attractions have changed slightly in different respects: I find small chested women appealing, innocent looker older women appealing, the girls who have pigtails appealing, women who look younger appealing... hell in general any women who looked young or cute. Getting down to the bottom of it, I like the cute looking girls. The thing is... all my mates like big breasted girls and older looking women and MILFS. While I like the younger looking ones who look 18-22 years old. There was a stage in my life when I prefered these types of women, but I don't know what changed :S Just be honest.. am I becoming a peadophile, because if I am, I can't face the world. I'm just going to kill myself. I hate people like this, I can't live if I become like this. Please can someone just reassure me that I'm overreacting!
Commented Jan 4, 2013 by anonymous
Be assured, you are not alone! There is nothing to be ashamed about for being attracted to young nubile females - in fact it's purely natural. Nature dictates that males will be attracted to the healthiest females!
Commented Sep 2, 2011 by anonymous
Agree!
Commented Sep 2, 2011 by anonymous
Thank you, it's just because I'm around people that like different tastes, I get worried lol.
Commented Sep 2, 2011 by anonymous
You sound much a mirror image of myself- deep down I do want to have family even though I pretend that I don't really like kids. I just feel, because of how society views men, that speaking like this makes people suspicious. The truth is I love children's idylic ways and the happiness most have. I enjoy it because as a teen I wasn't always happy so I enjoy being around an age group that is not stressed, it warms my heart and makes me smile. I think that's what it was all along. I like the cute, innocent and happy more than anything as a trait in an ideal partner. Thank you for responding, it made me feel better.
Commented Sep 2, 2011 by anonymous
There is something appealing about young girls. They don't have that bitchy attitude and they just look cleaner. Older chicks all seem to think it's cute to get in touch with their inner bitch and I despise that. They also don't do that 'I have big tits' thing where they act like they are the first girls on the planet to have tits. They think it entitles them to special treatment as if they had done something great to deserve those tits.
Commented Sep 2, 2011 by anonymous
I am 27hey guys, lets pass it on, nothing pedo here, the confessor guy was young and liked young girls and continues to like, that doesnt have to be a kid, as he said in his confession he likes 18-22 year olders and he is 18, so you like young but not younger than you. now to the other point, taste differs, one likes big breasts, others big booty, the rest like thin girls, the others like fat and you like innocent looking, whats the problem ? I see no point on concentrating to be a pedo. put that freaking crap out of your heads and start enjoying your lifes ;)
Commented Sep 1, 2011 by anonymous
I'm 24 and kindof in the same boat. I absolutely despise pedophiles and anyone who would take advantage of children in any way. But I can't help feeling like a pedo because I adore children so much. I love listening to what they have to say, watching them play, just plain looking at them. I know myself well enough to know that I would never EVER harm* a child, and I'm sure you're the same way. I think it's an attraction to innocence. I've never really been all that attracted to older looking women. I, like you, like the child-like type. Both physical and mental aspects. I do know one thing for sure: killing yourself is not going to help. At All. That's just stupid. I'm around quite a few of my friends' children alot and they are all so adorable. I have always had a deep desire to have a family of my own and find myself 'playing house' with these kids. I feel like a creeper though. I have pictures of them and other adorable children I come across. So people start getting concerned when they see pictures of random kids on my phone, ya know? But I don't hide it, like it's a dirty secret. I'd like to hear your thoughts in response, if you have a chance. for now, cheers, and don't give up on yourself. * to be clear, I consider inappropriate touching a form of harm.