you can save my life! thank you
Posted Jun 11, 2013 by anonymous | 394 views | 6 comments
Hello people :) please read this entirely I really need to say this.... I am completely lost. i don't know what I'm doing,i don't know if i belong here. But i feel like im not wanted. Here's my story..... Im now 16, im a guy in highschool i am smart talented tall handsome and very proud of myself! I have no problems at all. My life is great and im really happy... Well at least i act like i am. i dont know who my actual birth mother is i was adopted from age 3 months. I was born in redlands california and was adopted by a woman, a great beautiful womderful lady, who is my mother. I live hear and i will die for her, because she is my mom and i absolutely love her and i always will. She was a single mother, she worked very hard and still does. Shes always been completely honest with me and told me i was adopted at a young age, but i didn't care because i was with her since i was an infant, so i thought it wasnt true. I know im adopted but i dont know, i refuse to accept that i came from another woman, i don't want it to be true i even have a little siblings that love me and i truely love them because.im their brother. Im blessed with this family that loves me and spoils me to pieces, but i realize that im not theirs. I'm from another family. I feel like im a burden and cause problems for my family, i feel like they don't want me i feel like im hated i feel like im just a toy, i feel like i was bought at a store so i can be played with. I feel like my life is worthless and i don't matter to anyone, i know i do, i know I'm loved by my family but i just feel something, like I'm not supposed to be here and i need something to change. I just don't know what to do i feel like i was just placed in a home like a little puppy that someone could just get and raise like a human doll. I just need some advice on what to do and how to feel please help me
Commented Jun 13, 2013 by anonymous
Thank you that message is real helpful and really changed my view on this. Have you ever felt like this or something similar?
Commented Jun 12, 2013 by anonymous
im adopted as well and so are my three sisters. most parents have children and learn to love them, their children are accidents that they now have to problem with but like me you were chosen by your mom that other woman isnt your mom she just so happened to be the person who carried you for someone else. dont feel like a burden ur a blessing.
Commented Jun 11, 2013 by anonymous
BECOME THE STRONGEST VERSION OF YOURSELF
Commented Jun 11, 2013 by anonymous
i really really think you should talk to her tho..I mean everyone goes through that feeling but you have a bigger issue than most people do..or talk to someone I mean talking helps even when that's all you can do..
Commented Jun 11, 2013 by anonymous
I dont think i want to know about my birth mother, my mom told me that she wasnt able to take care of me and gave me up. i know my mom loves me and i love her but im just confused with my self
Commented Jun 11, 2013 by anonymous
I'm not adopted..and I don't kno what it's like to be in your situation. no one does cuz everyone has a different experience no matter if they're similar but I do kno what it feels like to feel hated by your own family..I'm a teenage girl I think we are kind on the same page but unlike me, you seem to have a mom that's willing to try as hard as she can to make you feel loved. you should really just tell her..lay it all out on the table and tell her how you're feeling..maybe you just feel like you need to kno more about your birth mother? maybe it's just a phase cuz you're a teenager and hormones make you think weird shit..but I really think you should talk to her..and don't do anything stupid! hurting or cutting yourself or thinking about suicide or anything like that is toxic trust me..