With love comes pain
Posted Jun 24, 2011 by anonymous | 446 views | 5 comments
I have been in love with someone for 9 years and he just plays me. He was my first and I want him to be my last. He has done so many things wrong to me. His "hangout" time mean come over so I can have fun with you then go to sleep. I can be so mad at him but all he has to do is say "hey babe" and I come running back like a lost puppy dog. He says he loves me and that I would make a great wife one day. We just have such a weird relationship if you call it that. We both date other people but always find ourselfs back in each others arms. I like to think that it will work out one day. This is such a long challenge. Numerous nights I sit up crying knowing the love of my life could at any time find someone better than me. I even tried moving 16 hours away yet could only stand to be gone for 3 months. I couldnt stand being so far away from him. I don't know why I can't just completely move on. I think its because when I do get in a relationship they are just complete a$$holes. I've been in two abusive relationships within a year. It seems like every relationship i'm in I get cheated on. But with him no matter what he does it seems like I can't stop loving him. He was in the hospital for a week for being paralized from the waist down. He could only tell his mom my name and she called. I stayed eveyday in that hospital. As drugged up as he was he remembers too. He says he loves me and it makes me feel so great to hear that. I know I deserve better but I can't help it. I will always love him and fight for him.
Commented Aug 28, 2011 by anonymous
Ain't you mentioned this before you lunatic !
Commented Jun 24, 2011 by anonymous
9 years and you don't get it?
Commented Jun 24, 2011 by Trip
he is not going to change- dump his ass and find someone who values you. A clean and permanent break is probably best.
Commented Jun 24, 2011 by anonymous
You are his back up plan for when he can't get pussy some place else. That is not love, that is manipulation. Move on, you will make a good wife someday...just not to him.
Commented Jun 24, 2011 by anonymous
You're not acting like you deserve better. I have no sympathy for you, but anyway, good luck