whenever i feel so down and have suicidal thoughts another thought pops in my head. This life is short, im not gonna let this little journey beat me... im gonna ride that mother fucker out like a wave, treat it like a test of my strength. Dont give up, you wanna live like all of us but you want a good life, we all do and in this world it can be hard sometimes and seem hopeless but theres always room for changes and new experiences. Do it, move away find new connections, fall in love, let others show u the beautiful sides of life, you've been laying in the negative for too long, like me..get outta there and the universe will show you who you are.

this may sound cliche and you may have done it but therapy does help. I was a skeptic of therapy but than i started and realised what they do. They allow you to get things off your chest but the real benefit is you start to see yourself clearer, why you feel the way you do, unravelling the reasons behind years of pain. It may seem hopeless now but ya need to work on yourself to find yourself behind the depression and negative thoughts.

I know how you feel, and this may be more than just "feeling different". Because if you want to kill yourself there is seriously something wrong. and thats nothing to be ashamed of. I was always too scared to ask for help and I ended up laying in a bed ready to die, I felt what it feels like to lose yourself, to no longer be attached to your own body and feel your insides dying. Lets just say it is not poetic. It isnt "beautiful" or painless falling asleep and never waking up. it's like.. being really tired but your eyes are duct taped open and you're uncomfortable and trapped in a small box but you cant move. and your head is swimming and youre seeing things and hearing things that arent really there. And then I was in a hospital. At first I was mad, but now I realized that I had made a mistake. Sometimes I still feel like life is kinda pointless, but then I think "eh, might as well make the best of it." So please please please seek out a professional, someone that will actually hear you and understand what you are going through. I hope the best for you.

Someone can be perfectly weird... me and my family have always clashed over just about everything. I always feel like I'm not good enough for them, or even for the woman I love. Sometimes you have to take a breather, step back, and wonder if maybe, just maybe, it isn't you. Just because you didn't turn out like someone else wanted you to, doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you, you're just different. My only two good friends died at early ages in car wrecks 6 months apart, my parents got a divorce when I was 10 and then fought for 9 years over custody of my sister, the woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with won't marry me because she is scared that we will turn out like her friends that have gotten married, and I'm at a job that I dislike and had to move back in with my dad to help take care of him and other things and I'm 26. I have a bright orange Mohawk, piercings, tattoos, and get ridiculed all the time for being my age with a Mohawk. I've decided to not let things bother me anymore. The less fucks you give about what other people think, the easier it is to make yourself happy. You might try it.

The problem is in you. Seek help!

You must take the help of counselor for that.