Okay here is my complaint/confession..........I am what I guess is considered attractive 2 most men mostly due 2 my personality or (my way with people).......I have just started dating this man 2 months ago and I think he hung the moon.....I can NOT get enough of him.....He seems like he feel the same about me.......The problem is I was dating for a few months before he and I ever got together......I seem 2 have this way about me that steals a mans heart almost instantly...(not something i want 2 happen) it just does.....So ANYWAY THE 4 MEN I WAS 'dating' all seem 2 not be able 2 move past what they and I had...(just casual dating) I want 2 be with 'josh' as a couple and NOT just dating.....He really is a remarkable man!!!.....This great looking man cooks me dinner, helps with my childeren, cleans around the house, fixes me a drink, pops in a movie, and rubbs on me, comletly loves on me till bed time nearly every eveing.....WHAT MORE COULD A WOMAN WANT???????????? He Constanly goes out of his way everyday 2 make me feel as if I am the only woman on earth!!!...So here is the problem..........Like I said..I have a way with men...So he and I went 2 a bar....As soon as he and I walked in people were welcoming us as he is a good friend 2 nearly EVERYONE there.....They are all telling him how much they like me and think he has made the best move they have ever seen him make...I feel flattered that they all like me so much....'Josh' could have ANY woman in this bar he wants, but I have him. :D ....ANYWAY....so josh seats me next 2 a few of his friends and (most I have met before) so I am in no danger of being hit on correct??? WRONG!!! I had drinks comming 2 me left and right....so I am feeling waaaaay good at this point.....Josh is still working the room and comming back every now and again 2 dance with me or bring me another drink...(he DOES NOT notice I already have 2 many 2 drink infront of me as there are others sitting at my table) WELL WE ALL KNOW how once we get 2 feeling GREAT we keep on going! So I get up 2 use the restroom and as soon as I come out this man who is a good friend of josh's is in line....I say hi as I wash my my hands and he says hi back...Next thing I know he right up behind me rubbing on me.....I turn around and tell him this can't happen as he is MARRIED (and his wife is there with us) and I came there with 'Josh'. (as this man was WELL aware of) He proceeds 2 tell me how he wants 2 kiss me and has since he first set eyes on me....:0 He places his arms around me and asks me 2 go out back for a while with him explaining noone would know if we did....I turn him down flat!!...so he proceeds 2 try 2 pull into the bathroom and I pull away AND BEFORE I KNOW IT HE HAS HIS TONGUE DOWN MY THROAT!!!!...I soon break free and am in shock at what just happened here...i look around and noone see's or wants 2 let on they did...i chalk it up 2 a drunk man who would'nt remember this later and am thankfull JOSH did not see(as I am not wanting 2 have him feel I was at fault in some way(or some whore he can't trust) this thought stemming from a woman he had a bad experience with a few weeks before he and I had met......Well I go 2 sit back down and there 'Josh' is at standing at the bar and as soon as I sit down he walks up 2 holding his hand out for me 2 go dance with him.....So I do and he is all over me and talking about all he wants 2 do 2 me....(HUGE turn on) Now here is where I should have told him what just went on with his friend....I did not because I am new 2 the crowd and don't want 2 rock any boats as well as the other reason.......So let it go...(MISTAKE #1 OF THE EVENING).....So Josh and I are finnished dancing and he walks me back 2 the table....I see his good buddy sitting there and I think everything will be better as his WIFE is sitting next 2 him....as I go 2 sit the man moves over so i can have a seat next 2 him...still feeling it's okay I take the seat he offers (MISTAKE #2) and Josh goes 2 mingle a bit more.....So this man across from me orders me a drink (THIS IS THE 4TH DRINK THIS MAN HAS GOTTEN ME)on top of 3 or more from josh( not 2 mention my empty stomach I am pouring all this into....Now this other man is smart enough 2 keep his distance knowing am there with josh....I figure he was in hopes of getting my # and maybe I will call later which I would never do)....(no big deal) he is harmless....SO josh's 'BUDDY' leans over and says I can take a pic with my camera phone of him and his wife....I do....He then says one of me and him....OKAAAAAAY....I am known for taking pics like mad of everyone so I lean in 2 take a pic with him(his WIFE sitting there watching the whole time) and he gives me a kiss on the lips and I hold it for a moment 2 snap the pic...(no big deal correct?) WRONG!!!!!!(MISTAKE #????) I AM KINDA INTOXICATED...so when he apparently slips me the tongue I don't pull back!!!.....well folks....from here on the MISTAKES go crazy!!! Now I may have been a bit jelous that Josh was talking 2 so many people and taking me around with him....or I was 2 drunk 2 care (I hardley remember this kiss) but I continued 2 let this man kiss me. BUT I CAN TELL YOU THIS...HE WOULD NEVER BE WORTH LOSING JOSH...or worth the wedge I feel it put between Josh and I. SO NOW HIS WIFE SEE'S THIS KISSS!!!! and from what I heard after...becuase at this point all I can go on is what I am told...(BECUASE I can't remember a thing) (not even leaving the bar or the ride home 2 josh's)...but his wife called me a whore and Josh and his sister caught hell from the wife....SOOOOOOO the next thing I remeber was waking up on the bathroom floor in josh's house after puking my guts out and then cralwing into bed next to him(him already sleeping)....SO HERE is my problem....I really like Josh but now he does not trust me...that I can try 2 fix....At the same time (I) don't want 2 be hurt if he can't get passed it and I have put my all into him for him 2 turn around and dissapear!!! SO WHAT WOULD YOU DO?????????