I was approached tonight by an older gentleman who lives nearby. He told me he'd pay to get my car fixed, my hair and nails done when I want it, new clothes, whatever I need. All's I have to do is go to Shriner's events with him, cruises and such, and sleep with him. He's not an unattractive man, very clean and neat, well groomed, fun personality. I've never been one to be with a man for his money, or what he can give me materialistically speaking, but, I've reached a crossroads in my life. I don't think there are any men left out there that really care about a woman for anything other than sex and companionship. I've been on my own for a long time, but I am in a state of almost financial ruin right now. This is the only reason I am considering it to begin with, but in my heart, I don't feel right about doing it. I think I could care about this gentleman, and I love the idea that I would be treated like a lady with the utmost respect. I met him a year ago, the day he was moving in here. I hit a pole while backing my car out of my parking spot right in front of him. It was because I wasn't going to ask him to move the moving van that was parked behind me, but drive around it somehow. He was concerned, but I acted like I didn't care. He told me tonight that I haven't talked to him since that. I didn't realize I had made an impact on him as well. He said it's been 3 years since he's been involved with somebody seriously after losing his wife to death in her sleep. I am flattered by the attention, of course, but what do I do? He wants an answer to his proposal soon. I told him I'd recently broke up with somebody I've been seeing for a long time. He asked me if that guy could give me what he could, and I told him the truth. That guy could give me whatever he wanted to, but he's too busy playing. I've waited a long time for the other guy to quit the nonsense and grow up again. I'm tired of being alone, and not being treated like the lady I am. I recently turned down a similar proposition with another guy who wanted me to be his playmate. I am not bragging or anything, but naked, I look like a centerfold, and I wish that I could meet a man that could see beyond that, and love me for me. Too many men that want to bed me, and yes, they'll pay for things I need, but I want love. The kind that means that you could be living in a tent somewhere, and still be happy because you've got each other.