
Trust Yourself
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 129 views | 0 comments
Not sure if you can help me or not. I am currently in a relationship with a man whom I love with my heart and soul. We've been together for almost 7 years. We get along great and seldom have arguments. But lately I have been feeling very slighted and unloved. He takes three medications(for blood pressure/anxiety/depression) that make his libido zilch. It's been like this for months, he's changed medicines only to have the same effect. I'm in love with him so I do not mind waiting this out. But I think that he just gets so frustrated with his self that he can't be a 'man' that he just totally wards off physical affection towards me unless its a kiss goodnight/goodbye. I can't begin to tell you how patient I have been. I've told him 3 times about needing affection from him that his words mean everything but that I need the affection part to feel loved. His response is always sweet. He tries I know he does, I just feel so bad that I can't do anything to help him. We've talked about marriage, him saying I could never lose you, will you marry me, do you want to marry me/etc. But even with all the talk and words, I still fear of waking up three years from now thinking why would someone want to stay with me for 10 years and not ever think about marrying me? I guess my concern is everyone around me is either engaged/or about to be married, and they always ask me so when are you two going to get married? It hurts I always say that I'm not ready that when I get done schooling, if he asks I will say yes. This is such a lie. Is there a polite response for this question? I guess not. I guess I am also feeling the brunt of working with a bunch of women who are adored and loved enough for someone to want to stay with them the rest of their life. I'm really not sure at this point if I've actually asked my initial question. I'm sorry if it seems as though I'm venting. I'm just very hurt, confused, frustrated, down, disheartened, angry, and sad. Will the day ever come? Am I holding on to endless hope? I've already had talks with him and him with me about wanting to be with me forever and getting a home together once we are engaged. Thanks for listening.
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