Trapped.
Posted Dec 27, 2011 by anonymous | 390 views | 2 comments
I am with a great guy, he is kind (most of the time), and we are set to be married. The only flaw he has is jealousy. I have never done anything to make him jealous, I don't even wear makeup in order to keep off the radar. The last couple of months or so has really been rough for me, I realized that I don't want to marry this guy, but he has been engaged before and left before the wedding date. I don't want to hurt this man, I love him, but don't think I am in love with him. He keeps accusing me of liking this guy at work or this guy at work liking me, after he met him once. The trouble is, after all of these accusations, I am actually starting to like this guy. I think about him all the time, and go out of my way to see him, and even look him up on facebook (just to see his picture). I have never cheated before, but am really trying to figure out ways that I can do it without getting caught. I know it is wrong, I don't want to do it either, but I just feel like I am trapped. We started dating right after I got out of a long term relationship, and I really feel the "call" of sexuality, I am comfortable with both sexes, and want to broaden my horizons. He does not. I thought that marriage was what I wanted, but I think it was more what he wanted. Now I don't know what to do. I want to be with other people, and maybe even more than one at a time. He is boring, and really turns me off. I thought there was more to life than this, but I dug my self in to a hole. I am not sure when the opportunity is going to rise, but I know that this guy at work likes me. Whether I go through with my evil plan or not is uncertain, but I know that he would be worth it, even if it was just once. The question is, how would I be able to face my soon to be husband again?
Commented Dec 28, 2011 by anonymous
Dont marry him, it's that fucking simple. And to the commenter below me; stop calling people stupid assholes you stupid asshole!
Commented Dec 27, 2011 by anonymous
You stupid asshole. Don't you see what is happening? he doesn't want to get married and is driving you to this other guy and into other behavior so that you become the reason why you guys break up, he already has a tainted record and doesn't want to be the bad guy in this relationship. Your falling for his manipulative tactics, and what's worse, he may not even conscioulsy know that he is pushing you away and sabotaging the relationship. Deep inside he doean't trust that you really care for him and it really sucks because the real deal is that he is afraid of getting married. You need to tell him that if you wanted the other guy you could have him, but that you choose him. And that his trying to push you away is the symptom of a deeper fear of his: the fear of commitment.