You are apart of my dna, you are NOT my family. Despite my feelings towards you, for the countless selfish things you have done, a VERY tiny part of me does hold onto a small fragment of hope, that maybe one day you will come around, and actually aknowledge the horrible and painful stunts you have pulled and become accountable for YOUR actions. You have hurt so many people, and continue to do so, with absolutely no regard, because of your selfish reckless and destructive choices. ONLY then will you have my forgiveness, and until THAT day comes you are NOT welcome to be apart of my life. I am trying hard to not hate you, for tossing our younger brother "under the bus", "to the wolves" so to speak. Only because you knew you could never break me down. Just because I can not forgive you does NOT mean I am bitter or or hateful. I have sadly come to realise you dont give a crap about anybody, except for yourself and only yourself ALWAYS. You never cut yourself short by any means, not to mention people aswell. Physically, financially and physcologically, your extensive violent criminal record proves so. You have really cut yourself short in so many ways, you have no idea. I wish you would wise the hell up and act right. I am sure you would NEVER do the things you have done to your sister, by adoption, that you grew up with, your entire life, the way you have treated myself, your younger biological sister and your younger bio brother. The family that adopted you are so so amazing and kind beyond description, yet so blinded by the deceitful webb you have woven. Its been a nearly 2 years since I had any contact with you. You called from jail, trying to pull your weak and pathetic hustle. I know without a doubt you are STILL doing bad. Dont think that I dont check up on you, cause I do. I have NO intention of having you in my life, you dont deserve to be. Either way I AM grateful that I met you, life IS short. I will cherish the good memories, more importantly I will treasure the many valuable lessons I learned.