total guilt, i screwed up again
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 131 views | 0 comments
I have totally screwed up again. Ever since my divorce 2 years ago I have been having sex when I can and whomever I can. I go to the bar on the weekend to meet men and often come home and sleep with one. I have been horrible to my children and have often contemplated suicide. I have been drinking heavily also on the weekends and I have had enough. I want to stop, but it is an addiction. I also have a gambling problem and can spend $400 gambling withing 1 hour and not even think twice about it. I have the urge right now, but know that I have to fight it off. I pray that through whomever might read this and with the grace of God that you all can pray for me and make this nonsense end and help me find myself again and be happy being me and not need that love which isn't true in the first place. Thanks for listening
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