this girl Heather #2
Posted Dec 3, 2014 by white boy | 209 views | 2 comments
These are some of the thoughts and feelings I had during my time "with" Heather that I had written down during frustrating times: Sometime in november 2012 I wrote this. Where ever I go I am bored, except for when I am around Heather. She brings the best out of me. We both like each other, or at least I think she likes me, I can't get over her. END I have not once in the past two years after anr all of the years prior to Heather ever felt so many emotional steps fly by with such power. Most people feel emotions through life as it happens, but for me Heather was the entire life that I missed out on and was not prepared for her at all. It began with the childhood feeling when you get a new "play thing," then comes the puppy love feeling where I always had to follow her around, next is the " wanting more" phase with fear of rejection mixed in. I took a chance and fears came true, we were never the same after that. The last two stages are that of depression where I cried at night and became short of breath( any one who says something about being a bitch has never had an only love who destroyed their llife) the second stage that I am still going through is the "why give a shit" phase where things lose all meaning including life itself. I was lucky enough to realize at an early age that suiside is for pussies and the only way I would want to dis is either by a hail of bullets or while having sex.
Commented Dec 4, 2014 by white boy
I would love to but all I have right now is a shitty tablet from my printer and "shared" internet that is slow as hell from my neighbor.
Commented Dec 3, 2014 by anonymous
did you look her up on facebook? i did and found her, shes cute, maybe you could talk to her again