There's someone I can't be around.
Posted Jul 11, 2013 by anonymous | 376 views | 2 comments
I met her Freshman year. We liked each other, but when she told me about her feelings for me, I bugged out and ran. We reconnected later that year. We kept on, with outercourse for years. sneaking out of the house and all. It was rocky; we'd contact each other, go out and have some fun, then I'd ask for commitment and she'd cut and run. We both cheated relationships with each other. We are both ashamed of that. One time, she tried to blackmail me, even though she was guilty at the same time. I stopped talking to her for a year. Then, I got an Email - this was normal - it could have been her attempt at another stint, but I want to start a family. I'm not going to let her, or my lack of self control get in the way of that. I decided that I couldn't be in the same place as her ever again. We've forgiven each other, I'm open to friendship, but I can't come face to face with her for a long time. Because if we do, either our clothes are coming off, or the gloves do. That's the two possibilities: fight, or something I can't bear to mention, because the idea of it makes me nervous, scared, and extremely horny. I wish I was a stronger man, and she a stronger woman, but when around each other, we lose control. We fluctuate between hate and lust whenever we see each other. I can't risk it. I can't be in the same room with an old friend, an old flame, someone I once loved.
Commented Jul 19, 2013 by anonymous
maybe the one you really love is her, dont you think so?
Commented Jul 11, 2013 by anonymous
You really have lack of self control.