the secrets of an alcoholic
Posted Jun 1, 2013 by anonymous | 221 views | 3 comments
I have been on a drinking streak for at least a year and half now, maybe two. I can't stop drinking for more than two days. I want to quit so badly but I can't. Sometimes I think about all the weird behavior and it makes me sick. Many times, in an effort to keep from waking my husband up while I'm late night alone drinking (because I didn't want him to realize I was up drinking) I have just peed where I was drinking so I wouldn't have to open a door. I've peed in a bucket and dumped it in the sink while drinking in the garage. I've pulled my pants down and hovered over the pool to take a pee while drinking outback . ..alone...as usual. At night, I just want to be alone and drink. I stopped peeing in weird places but I'm so ashamed. I wish I could stop drinking. I just want to be normal again and never have the urge to pee in a weird place just to prevent being caught.
Commented Jun 1, 2013 by anonymous
I've peed in some pretty wierd places two while drinking I don't think It's a big deal
Commented Jun 1, 2013 by anonymous
you are obviously not happy with your husband or your current situation. it reflects in your drinking & trying to numb yourself from your current reality. either you went through some dramatic even in your life you're trying to numb away or you can't stand the way your current lifestyle is. you will NEVER quit on your own. it will happen two ways; you die of alcohol poisoning or someone in your family intervenes & get you help.
Commented Jun 1, 2013 by anonymous
An alcoholic is a person who doesn't know anything while drinking.