Why does my past always seem to catch up with me, especially now I'm married with a young child. I'd given up my old ways, met Tony and fell in love. We got married two years ago and I concieved our daughter on the beautiful Greek island we honeymooned on. Then in April one of my old "friends" came over to us when we were out in a pub/restaurant and introduced himself bold as brass to my husband, telling him he was lucky to have, and I'll use his words "Such an energetic fuck machine". From my early teans and up to a few months before I met Tony at twenty three I absolutely loved sex. Sex that was hard and domineered. I liked nothing better than to have One, two, three or more men at the same time take advantage of my mouth pussy and arse. Using toys or other implements on and in me. I still love sex, and have a very very active sexual relationship with Tony, but now I have the one thing I've never had or felt with any man or woman I've had sex with, and that is total trust and complete and utter love for him. Tony flew at the guy and had to be stopped by other people there. Later when we got home after picking our daughter from Tony's mothers, he asked what the guy had meant by his statement. I didn't want to tell him. like I've said I've left all that in the past and have in lots of ways grown up, but Tony insisted in knowing. Not wanting to slip back into any of my old ways and never having lied to Tony I revealed all. Letting him know about pretty much everything, but trying to keep out the details. He looked shell shocked when I'd finished and went out for a walk, when he got back he asked me if I've continued to be the same person. I couldn't believe he'd asked me. I was devestated he even thought I could cheat on him. Tony and my daughter are my world, I love them both like I've never loved anyone and pour my whole self into our marriage. My old ways are exactly that My old ways. They aren't what I've become and strive every day to improve with my family, but how can I let my past recede completely, if my husband has doubts about me. It's been a struggle over the last few months and only last month Tony and I made love to each other again. I cried when he entered me, not because of any pain, but because of sheer relief and the feeling of our love returning. Now I only have the problem of reaping what I've sowed in my earlier life, and hope people can see I'm not the same person as I was then.