The Holy and the NotSoMuch
Posted Jul 18, 2012 by anonymous | 452 views | 2 comments
My boyfriend is very religious. He's named from the bible, goes to church every Wednesday and every Sunday. His father preaches; he even travels and preaches in jails. He believes with all of his heart that nothing is better than the lord and his son, Jesus Christ. Now, I'm all for havin something to believe in...I just don't. I am agnostic. I believe based on personal experiences. This is a big problem. I am certain his father doesn't like me, and he won't allow my boyfriend to hang out with me anymore. As a result, I never see him. Sure, we FaceTime when he can, but that's hardly a relationship. I don't want to be judged by his father. I don't want him to question how good of a person I am based on the fact that I don't go to church. I don't cheat, I don't steal, I am a good person. I'm just not a follower of Jesus Christ. What makes this worse... I'm hanging onto this relationship with everything that I've got. I recently lost someone I love very much. I miss him so, so much. But he's gone, and I can't get him back. I don't think it's unfair of me to fill a hole in my heart. I just don't know how fair it is to my boyfriend.
Commented Jul 19, 2012 by anonymous
Well, I was churchy and stil am, I guess. When I was 19, I was seduced by the church choir director, a 32 year old divorced woman. We had a lot of sex. I may be religous, but I do have needs and apparently she did too. We all fall short of the glory of God and sin in various ways. However, I rarely lie. I don't gossip, cheat my fellow man or steal. It all depends in what areas you are weak in. I am christian and admit I am not perfect. Some christians find it very hard to admit they not perfect and succumb to tempatation.
Commented Jul 19, 2012 by anonymous
Hey just relax. Pray to Jesus. He will satisfy your needs. As well you all wishes will complete.