losing my virginity was a big deal for me, since I was raised to believe that sex should only happen when you're married. but I still lost it at age 14 because I had been going out with this guy for about 7 months and he and I were "in love". Now I really wish I could take it all back and picked someone better, because the sex sucked! I mean it was the first time ever seeing and feeling a penis, but I KNEW that those things had to come in bigger sizes, it still hurt going in though. but apparently my "moans" turned him on, I wasn't moaning I was trying to stop from crying out in pain, and it didn't even last long. I didn't even have time to figure out what I was supposed to do before it was over, and he went Wayy too fast, I like going fast but that shit was just ridiculous. like once it went fully in and the worst part was over,... it didn't get better. i thought I was going to feel satisfied but I was just too disappointed, He wasn't a virgin I knew that for sure,but he just sucked. my first time is the worst thing ever. and even when I was still with him I still felt like I should've picked someone better, I cheated on him with another guy like a year after we started having sex and he was amazing! he was so much bigger that it kinda hurt every time he thrust into me, but it was still the best sex ever like wayy better then all the times I had sex with my first love, now I'm glad I broke up with him, not because of the sex thing but because there's a whole bunch of bullshit that I didn't wanna deal with anymore. Everytime we had sex it I'd fantasize about the guy I cheated on him with. the other guy still tries to talk to me, and now that I'm single after two years I wonder if I should take him out for another spin? I mean it was the hottest night ever and he's only the second guy I've ever done it with, the only problem is he's older and I don't know if I should do it again