I may've started to like a girl online. For about 2-3 years of chatting online we've become very close friends and about 2 years ago I started to get feelings for her. A year later I confessed them, only to be told around August this year she was Aromantic and Asexual (She basically doesn't want a relationship due to being uncomfortable with it and you can guess Asexual means she refuses to have sexual relations with either gender, which doesn't bother me.) However, I went through about a week of grief, mostly hiding it but also letting some slip out slowly. How much it was noticed is beyond me. Maybe none. Anyhow, we're close friends and potentially might try for the same college once we get more info in the years to come. As we're both interested in Coding and other Computer Sciences. Recently, she actually showed me a ton of Vocaloid songs and told me what connections she made to remember them. For a song called "The Rise and Fall of The Psychic Girl" she said it sort of reminded her of me and her. Not fully similar, but some aspects. Such as how she was more of an outcast of her school due to not talking, and I'm meant to represent the fact that a ghost can help (The song follows a ghost and a psychic girl and the ghost falling in love yada yada). The ghost part came from the fact at her school no one knows who I am so I'm a bit of a ghost. And finally there's the fact it's clearly stated the ghost character likes the psychic girl which is true in the real life counterpart. This brought up some older feelings from when she mentioned the Aromantic/Asexual thing. It's a case of "I really like her and have for a year or two, but I like her enough to respect her choice." but it's also conflicting with the darker part of my mind saying "It's likely a phase." or "I can change her mind" which goes against what I think is right. Despite the secondary feelings, the primaries take over first and I personally plan to hopefully be around her in a "I'll be here so you don't majorly fuck everything up." It sort of fills that feeling of not being around her, and also doesn't entirely go against her wishes. That's the plan. Any side-effects of it, I'll deal with along the lines. Hell, maybe it'd turn for my favor full swing, although I don't expect it to at all. Even if it did, I wouldn't expect it to stay that way. People's minds can change fast sometimes and slow others.