How it started with me and Dad was several years ago when I was 10yo I got into a fight with a bully at school. He called me a faggot and said I blow my Dad. I had no idea what that meant so I asked my Dad. When he explained oral sex to me I thought "GROSS" But Over the next few months I started thinking about what it would be like to give him blow job. Every time the thought entered my mind I tried to push it down, but it stayed with me. I was 11 yo old going on 12 when I asked Dad if I could give him a blow job. I recall the stunned look on his face and the stern "No, absolutely NOT, men don't do those sort of things with their sons". I was crushed and embarrassed. I did not mention it again until about a month later. Mom was out of town and I asked Dad if I could sleep in his bed. I liked it when he let me snuggle up next to him. He said yes. I was laying in bed when Dad came into the room with nothing on but a T shirt and his tighty whities. His bulge was really big and I could not take my eyes off of it. I wanted it so bad. When he got into bed I went for it, but he stopped me. I begged and pleaded with him. He finally relented but he said "Only for a minute. When I say stop you must stop" The thing is when I went down on him he did not say stop. I sucked his dick until he came in my mouth...honestly, at first I hated the taste of his cum. The next morning he told me what we did was wrong and it can never happen again. But it kept happening over and over. Sucking my Dad's dick was a powerful feeling for me. I loved giving him pleasure, I loved when he moaned, and as for his cum,,i grew to crave it. For a long time My dad would tell me we have to stop this, but he never seemed to have the strength to end it. I am sure he felt guilty, but I loved him so much. My goal was always about his pleasure. It has been 12 years now this began. I no longer live in my parents town. I am 300 miles away. I still suck him off when I visit. I cannot stop, I love him so much!