I'm a 16 year old girl and I always seem really calm and kind with everyone, I pretend I give a shit when I really don't I try to be nice, but really I don't actually like anyone I'm "Friends" with my Family is worthless to me and I find myself angry at my family constantly, people say something probably that wouldn't annoy anyone else but the smallest things make me angry to the point where I have urges to just smash their head in, my mum for example was whining about some bullshit and I just had the mental image of punching her in the face, or stabbing her with a near by knife. I don't care about the idea of their deaths, I wouldn't even be affected. I think about it and it doesn't change me remotely, they're just there in my life and most of the time I wish they weren't, I wish I could actually hurt them. My mum complains about how I am to her, I have to act like I care when I just don't. I don't care about anyone I know and everyone jokes calling me a Sociopath, but all this aside I just act like I care like I usually do and make everyone believe I'm the calm person they think I am. I get angry all the time and have to suppress it, I end up having outlets like hurting my cat, I end up strangling him and tightening my grip and hitting him repeatedly until he runs away (He always comes back though.) but I just have the temptation to snap his neck even though he loves me so much. I've lost my temper to the point I almost smashed a heavy object across my brothers head for him calling me something stupid, my parents had to hold me back. But even they think I'm not a horrible kid and that I'm calm and nice. But deep down I don't even want to be around them. I don't know if its just because I'm a teenager and all that stereotypical puberty bullshit but I always have the urge to hurt someone, to physically cause them pain, the idea of it seems like it would make me feel better. Anyone else feel like that?