strength
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 112 views | 0 comments
my school is too good for me. i thought it would be easier but my teachers don't think i'm good and i think i'm lying to myself. i want to be strong but i'm not [enough]. my father usd to be my favorite person in the world and then he started hitting my. yesterday he punched me and my nose is bruised and it bled too much yesterday. bugs have bitten my body 200+ times and so now i hate how i look and wish it could just reverse. i feel so lonely even though i have so many people in my life i could talk too--but do they even trust me? i like my internet friends better because i've known them for years and does that make me a stupid person? i feel that way. i think i miss out on life because i rely on them so much and i probably do but i wouldn't trade their friendship in for the world. they've help me so much and have gotten me out of my shell. does that make me naive? i don't know what I want anymore and my dad doesn't understand I try so hard. does that sound cliche? i cried yesterday and i want to right now but he's only across the room. i'll be given away. he said i broke his heart but honestly i think we broke each others. life is way too ironic.
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