straight, but not really
Posted May 8, 2013 by anonymous | 383 views | 2 comments
i consider myself straight and it was never in question. in high school a particular friend began to take more than a friendly interest in me. at first it was fun, new, exciting. but i do not suppose i could say i was raped by her, but certainly forced. and this may have messed me up in some way. i am now in a relationship with a different girl, who is everything the first girl wasn't. i am appreciative and i adore her but my heart is never in it. we've been with each other for seven years without difficulty and i just don't know how to say 'I'M NOT BEING ME." and i need out and i need freedom and i need to do me now. she doesn't understand nor allow me to talk about my first time with a girl. thinks i should just be over it by now. but it is not so simple. i can't get over it. it was twisted and unhealthy. and i still wish she would talk to me, say something, anything. i still wish she missed me, wanted me back. is that messed.
Commented May 9, 2013 by anonymous
Yes you must be true to yourself.
Commented May 8, 2013 by anonymous
be honest with yourself n others.