STOKES
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 139 views | 0 comments
This confession contains something that has bothered me now for several weeks. I recently took a vacation to spend time with friends and Family. While on vacation I was reminded of an event from my childhood. When I was about 15 and my brother was about 13 we pretended to have anal sex (pretend as there was no penetration). I truly believe that this was just harmless curiosity, if not kids just bieng wierd. I am straght in every way I can imagine and I guess this is why it has bothered me so immensily! I am now 26 years old and I have had several heterosexual experiencesand enjoyed them, However it has now been 3 years since I have been with a woman. This could possibly be part of the problem. Meanwhile last week I suddenly while with a group at work imagined another male co-worker kissing someone then with my currnet thought of my past memory with my brother immagined the kissing bieng with me. I dont even know that I really immagined this, I really just had a momentary thought of what if I had thought this. Know I find myself thinking about this more than the original thought and I sort of obsess over the thought of me having a bad thought and for some strange reason it has caused me to feel quite bad about myself and finds me wondering what others might think of me having these odd thoughts that are mierly daydreams! What do you think?
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