Still in love
Posted Jan 1, 2012 by anonymous | 328 views | 1 comments
I am still in love with my first love. 23 years later. dozens of relationships later. i think i am over it and fine for long periods of time then i dream about him. i feel ridiculous, sad and lonely. i think i am in love with being loved the way he loved me. tried finding it again but have not. yeah he's so moved on. yup i am pathetic.
Commented Jan 3, 2012 by anonymous
I feel you girl, but it's the reverse for me... I was in for the long haul for three years, he, i guess thought that he could do better, went out and started fooling around...found me to be what was holding him back and basically cheated, i found out about it and for a while tried to salvage what was valuable to me, but when he saw that I knew about it and was trying hard to stay with him, he cheated even more and took me for granted. Ofcourse I was heart broken, but we broke up when I knew for sure there was nothing there between us anymore. The a**hole even went as far as to taunt me...well, time went on, he did his thing, realized that he actually had gotten very lucky to have been with me and what we had and then the phone calls started - this after he washoeing around all over town - texts too. I did sleep with hin a couple of times, but mostly out of personal interest, at that point it was all one-sided for me. He tried to hang-out with me, but I just laughed it off and never acknoledged his interest..he then started showing up to the places I'd go to on weekends that the knew...we would talk, drink, laugh, for a bit, but it was all over for me, and the six months we'd been apart helped me realize that he was not the guy for me... boy was I thankful we were over. He one night told me he still found me attrative - this after he went out and met with a lot of trashy people. Well, we never got back together. And the biggest humilation for him was him trying to get back with me when I never wanted us to end and me being the one to just walk away. I know I'm his greatest mistake...and I also know he always compares every other relationship he has with ours. What an idiot. I feel nothing for him now. Except laughter when I think of it. I guess that's how you feel, huh, playa. LOL