I am engaged to a great man. The problem is he's never home and when he is, his brain is always at work. I feel sooooooo lonely and alone even though i am not. It is impossible to contact him. when a close aunt passed away early this year, i could not get a hold of him and I am still scarred. We also had plans for a marriage he never wants to plan or discuss, let alone babies and all this time i told myself to be patient (although lately i noticed the patience is being replaced by resentment. I want babies! i'm 29 years old! i'm not getting any younger!!) So this one day, i am at home...lonely and alone as usual. I'm surfing youporn (not because me and the fiance don't have sex, we do, just he's not always there when i want it so....) and it really just wasn't doing anything for me so i was remembering my teenage years and how popular chatting was and decided I'd go to a sex chat for 20 min, be done with that and move on with my life. That's just not what happened. I started chatting with some guy and we were really hitting it off, we had a crazy long conversation and for the next weeks we spoke on the phone for hours and hours a day! It's been 3 weeks and I'm afraid. We tell each other we miss each other, we say "I'm so in like with you" we talk about everything and i've been just swept off my feet. Reality: Well, i discussed with my fiance how i feel in our relationship, so we are taking a break from the relationship to figure out what we both want. and the man that I've been chatting with that i never met? Well, he is separated from his wife but still lives in the same house (red flag?) But this is the thing. He is all kinds of bad for me. I know that the smart thing to do is to not be in a relationship with him and that in fact i should just stop talking to him altogether. HOWEVER, he makes me feel so great and i like him soooooooo much i feel like if i drop it a) I will go through heartache. I will cry, it will just destroy me for a bit b) I don't want to kick myself in 20 years because i didn't let it become what it could be Maybe we can continue talking and these feelings will dwindle mutually so we don't have to go through a "break-up" or should i just walk away....or my biggest fear, what if I fall even harder and he just gets less and less interested? Do i risk everything on a what if? Man, I hate that i like him so much. Just the mention of his name makes my heart flutter. sucks.