I already know this is bad, but it happened and I want to get it out of my head. My mom got married to this man and I really liked him we get along well. I stayed living with my dad for the first year of her marriage. I moved in for the summer and met his family. I liked everyone, but his son. He's 19, two years older than me and very rude to his dad and my mom. I don't like disrespectful people. One day he had called me a “bit overweight" and it offended me. So I decided that maybe I should start exercising. They're really wealthy and have a workout room so it would be easy. I exercised for like a month and I didn't really talk to them because he always got what he wanted or was treated better than me. He started treating me more nice, since I became anti social. It made me look at him differently. He's like emo, punk or whatever and I've never been interested in those guys. I usually date black or Spanish people. But I liked him. I didn't make it known because its gross And it looks really bad and besides I see what my mom goes through for being black and being with a white boy. My family does not really like it which is crazy because its 2014 people need to get over themselves. Anyways, i was alone in the place working out wnd i had head phones in so i never heard him come in. He said he'll help him with my sit up...I thought it was wierd but i just wanted to have him leave as soon as possoble without arguing. I did like 7 sit ups and when i came up the 8 th time he kissed me. I was really stunned but some how we had sex in the exercising room and i can not stop thinking about it. It was my first time having sex so i find it awkward but he just acts cool about it. I want to tell my mom but it would ruin her relationship so im just gonna wait for my 18th birthday in March to move out of that house and try and forget, but i think it will for sure happen again. I just try avoiding him, but just last night we made out and messed around but didnt have sex. Its just strange and i know its nasty, and wrong or whatever, but thats why im confessing it. But as soon as i can get a house I am definitely leaving. I might even stay with my dad again. Just to be safe.