Should I stay or should I go now?
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 104 views | 1 comments
I feel myself being more drawn in by him every day. We both secretly swore that we werent looking for emotional catastrophes, as we've had so many before us. It was meant to be a fling.. A fling that never existed. We've yet to have sex, or anything of the nature other than kissing. I keep telling him he has too much to deal with in his life; and, in reality, he does. He's significantly older than I am, divorced, and is still in the lives of his ex wife's children, who he claims may not be his own. He's even working to adopt them now. I'm at such a loss. I feel like I'm getting in too deep, or that I shouldnt even be considering trying to have a relationship with him. He claims I'm playing with his head. We've been talking for, what, almost 6 months now. He says now that we're no longer co-workers (Yeah, throw that in there, too), there's not that much in our way. Hello! I am 19 and you are 45.(lol) We were on the phone the other night, when he told me I could get up and bring him some coffee. I laughed and told him “I like ya, but I don't love ya!”. We laughed and he said he didnt want me to love him. Before I got a chance to swat back with a smartassed comment, he confessed that he actually did love me. I find myself thinking of him all the time but I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not.
Commented Jul 18, 2014 by anonymous
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