She walked upon the edge of no escape, and laughed I've lost control..
Posted Jun 30, 2011 by anonymous | 490 views | 6 comments
I think about death every waking moment of my life. It hurts to exist. I suffer from PTSD tramua after being sexually exploited by my ex. I cry to sleep and upon waking everyday. The tramua has left my existence unbarely to the point that I cut all my hair off, self mutilated everyway possible and was hospitalized for a while. I have thoughts of extreme self mutilation as in cutting off body pasts and self casteration. I hide my emotions, and feelings, and scars very well. I fool my own therpist (not seeing anymore, since useless) and friends. Other then those who live with me, no one really knows the extent of my pain. I'm moving out for a while to clear my head and die with comfort. I plan on falling to my death or taking a gun to my head. I don't want to be strong, I don't want to get better, I don't want anything. I don't seek redeemtion for my suffering either. It's okay, becaue it' going to be over. You won, humanity.
Commented Sep 17, 2011 by anonymous
God, why do women throw such a fit over this kind of thing?? It happend to me, I got my revenge and it doesn't cross my mind anymore.
Commented Aug 28, 2011 by anonymous
YOu think about death. Ok then so what? Just buy Marylin Mansons next CD and slit your wrists then !
Commented Jul 11, 2011 by anonymous
look i know where you are, and all i can say is it wont just get better you need to join the groups, go to consuling and really work hard to have a chance at recovery. Though it is not okay to kill yourself , you received a gift to be on this earth and must have been happy until that fateful event that happened to you, remeber though, that those days can come back, they have for me good luck, fellow PTSD sufferer
Commented Jul 2, 2011 by anonymous
I'm so sorry to hear you are hurting so much. I agree with the previous poster, it's a label and perhaps your crutch and cross to bear. Don't let another person be responsible for your happiness - you need to make that happen for yourself. You can't be the only person who suffers from PTSD. Seek help from support groups. You are not as alone as you think you are. I wish you nothing but goodness. Get well.
Commented Jul 1, 2011 by anonymous
We're forgiven for everything we do in this world EXCEPT suicide. You will go to hell so please get help. Find the Lord for comfort.
Commented Jun 30, 2011 by anonymous
do not give up, you live only once. Life is difficult but you can make it better, it all depends on your. Do not let doctors put labels on you, PTSD although might be a serious issue it is just a label, it is all in your head, you can overcome the negative thoughts and feelings that you have, just think positive. Take a vacation it will help. If you are seriously thinking of taking your life, please call this number, they will help you: 1-800-273-TALK