See, the thing about THAT is....
Posted Sep 9, 2011 by anonymous | 337 views | 0 comments
I really like drugs, with the mentality of I'll try anything once. I've dealt with everything minus needles which I have no desire to. Currently, I'll abuse whatever is currently legal... mainly for the reasons that there was a many year hiatus and I've lost touch with contacts. Alcohol was my go to during the hiatus. I never was a complete fan ... You would of never of known. I've practically given it up now that I'm back in my comfort zone, maybe once a month? It doesn't do what I like. I really miss my old days where things were around. I was in the culture. It's harder if you're older to make it back. I have a fairly considerable addiction, resulting in insomnia and lack of appetite but besides that... I'm fine. I've never really let anything mess around with my "professional" life.. if I noticed that, I'd reign in. It will, however, completely ruin my social life. Or what little interaction I have that you would call a social life. I've been alone for so long, I don't know how to interact with people anymore. Most of the time... I'm okay. Sometimes it gets bad. How am I ever going to adapt? Get back socially? I'm ridiculously shy... Long story / short. I'm going to die alone. It's not that dramatic though. The problem comes back to substance abuse. Sure, I've used it as a crutch before, maybe I am now. But I've always enjoyed the idea of altering the mind in different ways. Say through sleep deprivation instead of a chemical... it's interesting how the body reacts. .... and all that is what you call the rationalizing of an addict.
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