Okay, I think the statement 'ALL THINGS CONSIDERED' should be a MAIN objective in elementary on...I think of it as an intelligent formula to apply to any situation where one is left thinking..... 'what the fuck just happened'----?!? For example, I've felt really lousy lately, (as time gos on Im begining to think it could be reality setting in since afterall im 25,and was ignorantly suprised when I realized just how 'far behind' I'd gotten on all those --goals...?!?) REGARDLESS-- I feel that kickin people when they're down ....is in bad taste to say the least,and honestly I thought that most of this universe felt the same way.....'ya reap what ya sow' OBVIOUSLY NOT.....for example I was sitting at a stoplight when this punk ass boy (driving a NeW MuStAnG white....gleamin' thru slooow-like fuckin' lite, when he passed by my car both windows were down and it wasnt like he cared if I heard him or not ...but I heard him say something about ....how I looked like a crackhead.... hmmmm, situations like this put my good judgement in a tuff spot....because it was no longer relevant what color the lite was, nor was the U-TURN I did in the middle of the intersection.... Of course your probably wondering... could there be some truth to this spoiled brats observation...perhaps shes 'cracked out'..... Heres the thing.....it seems looks '1st impressions' are 'EvErThInG' but when im sitting in a car minding my own ...fucked up day, I dont care what their impression of me or opinion of me is, yeah everyone has one of those...but do ya have to hollar it out within hearing distance,NO. Materialistic, hmm to be honest w/ ya Im kinda materialistic myself-USUALLY-....and I couldnt help but feel a tad better at the thought of the same instance occuring down the road after Ive actually put some effort into getting ready....and hell driving my own vehicle...due to several speeding tix etc. I ve lucked into a friend of mine (hes on house arrest & cant go anywhere) letting me borrow his car the last few months ...and Ive gotta admit the muffler was removed long before me....so it is noisy But All im saying is this jerk had no right to say those things to me...and I know for a fact ....had I fixed myself up that day ....had I been driving my JEEP -his tone wouldve been completley different...but even when I am actually on top of my 'game' or whatever ...I'd never dream of carelessly shouting anything at anyone ....especially if they looked as if they might be having a bad ...life...why make it worse on em'.... this has gotten way outta hand ...length-wise but instead of deleting this bottom part....I figured...nah I 'll leave it ...at least that way I wouldnt have wasted my time... : ) ............you nor I want to hear me rattle of these painful things that have kept me from ...MY FULL POTENTIAL, because everyone has problems but mine fyi involve an alcoholic father who just remarried and suprised me at christmas w/ a lil sister...my mother thinks she has to be in complete control shes workin swing shift 12 hr days at some tire factory inhalin toxic fumes....in between time she takes care of my grandpa, who recently got 4 more spider tatoos-sp- on his FACE...at my bro.s graduation a couple wks ago it was so obvious that the HYSTERECTOMY her fuckin $luvin bitch Dr. 'reccomended' wasnt the cure for what is actually ailing her....my brothers medication is acting up again , he has touretttes syndrome....and oh my sweet JESUS, this is a terrible thing that requires utmost patience-sp- and luv to handle....he's been to world renowned Dr's my family even drove to some big college somewhere to have all these new tests run on him...to no avail .. Okay forgive me .....but remember I was simply sitting in my car waiting for the lite to turn green,....... And back to my mantra...all things considered, it seems difficult to hone in on that when your as angry as I was..... So when I finally caught up with this jerk.....he had some Abercrombie & Fitch-ie chic in the passenger seat, neither of them were probably over 18 yrs. old but I didnt think of all those things that would've normally went into it...obvious factors....$$$$/new mustang/girlie next to him/spoiled punk tryin to show off for his girl...I dont really know, but I just said the first thing that came to mind when our windows were side by side (going 40 or so mph)... 'what makes you think you have the right to say something like that ....when YOU DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW ME, x's 3' I think the fact that I'd suddenly reappeared kinda freaked him out but after I said my piece (I guess..?!?) I got in a lane to turn back around toward ....the place Id been originally going, home...But of course he had to have the last word, or what-ever....So he, hell maybe it was both of them hollar ....YOUR A SLUT as they go on thru the lite.... Most people say ...fuck em'.....or who cares....and I wish I had that perspective....and believe it or not I didnt intend for this in itself to continue to consume as much time as it has, but Im over it now I just liked the idea of what your sites about...plus it makes ya feel better to vent and to think that it could prove insightful...or simply similar to anothers experience....and for the record I realize all the problems I listed above were more external than ...personal....but like I said it recently occured to me how unfair life is, its literally a rat race but some of us rats have been injected with rlz560wealth&prosperity while others had to first find their way out of 'tributary' mazes before they even get the fuckin first glimpse at the real race.....