Sorry for reposting again, I had to edit a few details I forgot to add, Sorry. When I was fifteen, my parents were fighting everyday, trips to the hospital were frequent, they kept beating each. My mother was and is bipolar, she never knew how to take care of herself let alone of me and my sister. We were completely shattered. Me and my sister had some sexual experiments when we were both little :-( , I was abused latter. As almost every male teenager, I already was seeing regular porn, paedophilia became an addiction as well. Children from every age, from 0 to 40, a man evacuating in a... can't say the rest (thanks 4chan for this image from hell), a child bearing a child already, atrocious types of porn, never had to pay for them. I had fantasised only once time about children in real life. Another situation was that,I thought I did had feelings for a daughter of my parents friends, she was 10, did her nothing.Or that I had a chance to take advantage of a 16 when I was 25 year old, she wanted to date me badly, I liked her, but thought to myself to get real, she's just a kid, I did her no harm also. Then I met my first girlfriend, I've stopped watching child porn for her, we dated 6 years until I was 24. We broke up and I felt into the same addiction for a short period of time again. I met my second girlfriend. The love I had for her changed me and, shaped me, my perspective about life. Child porn and even pornography was no more. I became and I am filled with shame from what I did. Sometime sad also happened. My mom that same year had a maniac bipolar episode, and she decided to go totally out of her mind to Italy, Rome. I had to report her as missing and police was looking all over for her, she almost died due to anaemia and starvation. I had to put my mom to a mental hospital. When I was younger a friend of mine asked me to steal two headlights from a car, gave money to the same friend so he could purchase a sum of hash to sell not huge not small, was a one time only, put online pics of a friend, she was 20, 14 in the pics, not showing any intimate parts, it was a prank, removed them immediately in minutes. Pulled two insurance frauds, one when I was 20, got 350€, the other I refused the money (750€), because it was the right thing to do, I had to start straightening myself out. Well, after all I've said I feel like a true delinquent. I'm almost two years of child porn, feel sorry for not being a longer time, don't feel any urge to see it again in my life, I feel genuinely disgusted and guilty of my past, It makes me sick. I've started college, life feels good now that I'm clean of the old addiction. I still feel guilty, and want to move on, but I need the people's opinion in what I've done. I have women flirting with me occasionally but I feel too guilty to even talk to them. Please help. Should I give myself to the authorities? Please share a reply. It's all I ask.