REALLY want to have sex with a particular guy, probably just for the feeling of power and I don't know why
Posted Dec 23, 2012 by anonymous | 365 views | 2 comments
I REALLY want to fuck a certain guy, which is really weird, considering for the last few years of my life I've been almost completely convinced I was gay. I don't find him attractive, and I don't want to date him in the slightest; I just REALLY want to get in his pants, like it's the only thing I can think about anymore. I think it might be because I consider him an intellectual equal, something I don't consider much of the population to be, and I want to like, establish dominance or something? Whenever I think about it, it's less of an "I really want to date you because I think we're compatible and you're attractive" thing and more of an "I want to take your innocence and knock you off your pedestal you pretentious prick" thing. Which I also feel pretty bad about, considering he's actually not pretentious and a really nice guy, just with a lot of the same patterns of thinking that I have. And I have this like, narcissistic/self-deprecating complex, so maybe that's it? Because I see a lot of myself in him so maybe that's kind of why I want to not-quite-hatefuck him? I don't think he's even ever had sex, and he's had like one girlfriend and not really gone beyond making out, and he's a few years older than me (yeah I know, 18 and 16 isn't exactly legal but anyways). I just really want to take his virginity like. As a power play or something. I don't even know. I just had to get that off my chest.
Commented Dec 24, 2012 by anonymous
Sounds like the perfect Hate Fuck.
Commented Dec 24, 2012 by anonymous
Google it you will find plenty of them.