really I need help
Posted Mar 8, 2013 by anonymous | 701 views | 1 comments
I have major depression... I been diagnosed with it... I haven't tried to kill myself in about 5 months... that was my first time trying and last... but I still want to... and u don't know why.. I go to therapy a lot of the time... I get angered easily and sad very easily... I know why... but still... I cut my finger the other day just so I would bleed... I like to see me bleed... I want to see how bad it would hurt... I feel like I need to be punished a lot... I'm scared I may try to really hurt myself again... the other night I had an almost breaking up with my bf fight... I went to get a bath to relax... while in there I stared at the razor wanting to redo what I did before but deeper this time... I want to... I didn't.... after watching what I just saw... all this fear crept back to my mind... I felt worse than that kid.... I'm sicker than that kid... I am scared I may go blank again... like I.did last time and do something... but if I tell my mom they might need to put me away... I don't wanna go away...
Commented Mar 8, 2013 by anonymous
The title of your post says, "really I need help". Why not take that help in any form it can come to you. Going away to a place where they will talk to you and help you, may not be a bad thing. Give it a shot. We all need help sometimes. Just do it. Tell your mom.