I want bigger boobs. Big time! I am almost like a child the way I am now. I suppose I am comfortable with the way I am but I would like to improve and that's just how I always see myself. As in, 'Okay, what can I work on making better to my liking today!' Be it, tweezeing eyebrows or a specific workout, or just putting a face mask that day. Well Now I'm sort of not able to ignore the one part that i'm still sort of uncomfortable with. My boobies are just too small for my liking. I have b's.. And they're okay. I am 22 now, 5'0, weighing about 93lbs. *sigh* Maybe I should just force myself to eat a bunch of food and exercise? Will that make them grown on their own? I don't eat much to begin with so I guess that's the problem here.. I used to eat like two steaks in one sitting!! Now I can barely finish half of one.. It honestly makes me really sad. I can't eat the way I used to and now if I try, i'll get very uncomfortable, and want to throw up because my stomach doesn't like the feeling of food in it anymore. How did this happen. I never thought i'd be able to consider myself as one of THAT category. Eating disorder? I don't think so.. I think I was just too poor and had to buy other things, rather than food... Like dog Food. X_X" I don't know what to do though. I feel like i'm shrinking, boobies included. And I feel like I KNOW that but then it comes to eating and then I see myself in the mirror and I feel like i'm actually growing in size and eating too much. Thinking about it now though, maybe i'm not eating enough and I just don't really realize it. Or I do realize it I just don't do anything about it because I feel like i'm eating too much. Realistically, i'll eat maybe half of a sandwich in a whole day and then maybe not eat anything at all the next. I think if I had someone to talk to about this i'd come to a conclusion as to what actions to take to approach this much easier. But I don't communicate much. I stay indoors, turn away visitors, I don't reckon I have any friends to come to my calling if i'm in dire need. Generally I am the one people go to when no one is left. And i'm perfectly fine with that. I like my solitude. But at the same time, i'd like someone who can just be my listening ear, and offer their insight without being too judgmental towards me. I guess you could say i'm somewhat of a different breed. I study things that no one wants to talk about or that they consider taboo. My beliefs are too out there for anyone to really grasp. What I do for fun and hobby are not meant to be group activities and are not really.. 'good' or logical for anyone. And my dreams to most look like a lost cause. But I do all of these things with good reason. And i'm sure if people would take the time to learn about what I do and live by, they're be more open to these things in their own lives. But like I said before, i'm really not one to go out and communicate about it. Someone would have to take interest and have to find me. And what are the odds of that. Not very high. Look at this, I went from feeling insecure about my boobies to looking for someone with similar interests. How do I even know what I want if I can't stay on one set subject for a few measly paragraphs. I think what I truly need, is a friend to talk to. And that's fucking scary.