Hello everyone, I beg deep down from my heart to the moderators to allow this, I need to be judged by the people. I'm 27. I will be brief. If any of you want to report me fine I feel I deserve it. I didn't abused anyone in real life, neither wanted, neither will. My attractions always were for women my age. Since I was little me and my sister always suffered. Mother is bipolar, she always had many mania attacks, she never educated us, never gave us no morals and any love. House ambient was a mess. I grew up and like many teenagers saw porn, it was my only comfort, my sad love, I had no friends, just the computer. I was 15. Then while browsing 1001 pages I've found child porn, at the time I didn't thought it was wrong, I never judged it, it was just there like the other porn. This began in 2005. I saw images from literally every age range from 0 to 50, it was all pornography to me. Found 4chan and saw the most disturbing images, many disgusting actually, a man doing is necessities in a... (I can't say the rest). Once I thought I was infatuated by a 10 and a 16 year old, but I got real and shrug off the feelings. Later on I had my first girlfriend, she was my age. I felt love for the first time in my life. It started changing me, questioning what I have done in the past. That child pornography was wrong, children are not to be molested neither abused like I saw on the internet. I confessed her my past, she told me to go to therapist, which I still do go until today. I stopped seeing child porn 2 or 3 years ago. She changed me, love changed me, now I see what I've done wrong, she told me it was wrong, finally someone that meant something to me gave me morals. That same year I had to put my mother in a mental hospital, for the third time in my life, she almost killed herself... Well now that ,this part is settled, I also want to reveal some small crimes I've committed, I want to be judged overall. When young I stole two headlights from a car, gave money to a friend to buy a not small but not large sum of hash, lost the money in the process, suits me right. Pulled a prank me and my friends to a girl that was very cocky in school, she was 20 at the time, 13 in the photos, put them on a on-line forum, deleted right after, she wasn't naked, was covering all her body parts. And finally, Pulled two insurance frauds, had to lie to the police in the process, one was long ago for 350€ which I accepted, the other was last year for 750€ which I refused because moral, and righteousness kicked in, I refused the money, I had to start straightening myself out. Well and that's it. I've started college recently, made new friends, life's finally good, I'm finally living life, sort of. Please after reading this I know many of you are disgusted with me, fine, it's completely normal, and I deserve it, worlds a mess, and I'm no shinning example. I like my women in real life like wine, the older the better. Children were never my interest, just when I was a teen looking at a computer. I'm tired of waking up every morning, at the prime of my age, wasting days ruminating in guilt. Please, spare some keyboard typing for me and say what I need to do. Should I walk into the local squad and confess this? I know I deserve it, or can I forget it and be normal, like I want to be? Thank you reader a lot.