Rape changes everything
Posted Nov 17, 2011 by anonymous | 544 views | 2 comments
I never wanted kids but my views changed after I was sexually abused at 18. Instead of running away from the problem, I went straight to a hospital where I could seek medical attention after the horrific incident. I signed contracts saying they could test me for whatever but when it came time to test vaginally I was a little emotional and it was suggested I come I take a walk. Instead, I ran off and never returned. or told anyone about what had happened. Why? Because I was simply scared. 6 weeks later school was back in session. Nothing was normal, I was in some awkward trance that kept me from communicating with the world around me. I began getting ill and there wasn't any reason for it. I test positive for pregnancy and only told 1 person. I made the decision to terminate the pregnancy because I lift under tight rules and I wasn't fit for motherhood. Since termination, I have often thought about why I didn't keep it and why I was so stupid to do what I did. I know and understand that I was at the wrong place at the wrong time but now that I am 21, I feel that I could have taken care of the baby. I've gone down hill since the procedure and I regret everything. I haven't accomplished anything I wanted to after I graduated. I work at a fast food joint and I hate it so much. I want to have a baby but I don't trust anyone enough to give me that option nor do I want to use anyone JUST for that. Advice?
Commented Jun 19, 2012 by anonymous
how old are ur kids i am wanting to have sex with the boy
Commented Nov 17, 2011 by anonymous
Your turn in motherhood will come. Hang in there.