Ok, so I've been with this guy for 4 years now and we've been really happy. Theres been a few arguments but what couple doesn't argue? Well, things were starting to get old. I mean, we would just sit in his room all day long and he's 21 and still living at home. I mean I guess I can't say anything because I understand that money is tight and I would proabally do the same thing. Also, we got to the point to where we couldn't agree on anything. We could hardly even compromise, and If we did come to a compromise then I would almost always be the one giving in to whatever it was. Well after so long I just couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't sit in that weed smelling room watching a tv any longer. So I told him that I think we needed a break. I mean, we just lost our 'spark' i guess you could say. I love him alot and don't get me wrong because I honestly think one day we will be back together...I guess i'm not 100% sure though. Ok yeah, After we took a break it was like 2 days and I saw my friend that I haven't seen in forever. We have been friends for a while now, goin on 8 years and we used to date. Well, we started hanging out more and getting to know eachother again. After a few days we ended up really drunk and stoned and had sex. I don't know wether to feel horrible about all this or what? I mean, I really do feel awful about Bryan. I mean he's proabally at home wondering what i'm doing and that just makes me feel like shit, but on the other hand I feel like I was a zombie and I had to have a change. I love bryan and I started to catch feelings again for this guy, tim, but then I realized that he's moving in a few months and we wouldn't have worked out anyway. I think I only caught feelings because i'm lonely from not having by baby there at night to sleep beside. But you know, bryan never cuddled and that I hated that. I love to cuddle but then again what girl doesn't? Anyways, thats not the last of it. Now when I try to call bryan and talk to him he ignores my calls and he acts just like he did towards me when I decided we needed the break. The feeling is honestly like he hates me being there or calling. I don't understand. I really think my plan which I thought would bring us closer backfired and now I feel like shit. Help.