Peter is Afraid of Wendy.
Posted Jul 4, 2011 by PenelloPann | 568 views | 5 comments
I have Peter Pan Syndrome. Which means, despite my adult age, my mind is very child-like. Yesterday, I went to this dance so I could have some fun with my new friends I made at this new school. It started out pretty amazing. I have one particular friend I especially like as he reminds me of someone genuinely happy and loved all the time. He is the only person I am particularly close to. Of course, since he is the person I can feel safest around, I tried to dance near him. He has something particular about himself that attracts people. Men and women alike. Everyone truly loves the guy. So, I got stuck in this group of 40+ people and well, my Peter Pan syndrome got to me. As the intense beat of the music increased, the dancing got more and more...explicit. I got caught between a group of people in the midst of "grinding" and was forced to rub up on people...and I wasn't ready for that. I had to leave the dance. Of course, one of these boys had pity on me, and took my hands and danced with me, saying, "Nobody should be alone on the last dance." There is one thing that I cannot stand--and that is people's pity on me. He wasn't trying to be kind, because he left in the middle of the dance saying that he had to meet someone. He didn't even get my name. My friends left to go party after the dance...this led to more grinding on each other. Three minutes into it, everyone around me that I loved so much--doing such adult things...it scared me. I left within three minutes. In tears. I have not even allowed anyone to touch me ever since.
Commented Aug 28, 2011 by anonymous
Why don't you fucking grow up and sort your fucking life out you complete and utter tosser. People like you are fucking weirdo's and probably peodo's. Hand yourself in and get medication. Then shoot yourself !
Commented Jul 5, 2011 by anonymous
show him you tits
Commented Jul 4, 2011 by anonymous
Good luck Penello! Post back here in a few months and let us know how you're doing.
Commented Jul 4, 2011 by PenelloPann
I understand your point. I use the term to say that I sort of keep a childish mindset, but still accept responsibility...on occasion. There are different ways of looking at it, I suppose. But thank you SO much for the advice. That idea makes me feel much more comfortable with the upcoming week (in which I have to attend another dance). I'll try to follow that thought as much as I can. Thank you. ~Penello.
Commented Jul 4, 2011 by anonymous
I don't know if I'd say you're childlike so much as shy. To me, the Peter Pan syndrome implies a refusal to 'grow up' and mature. What you're describing is more of a shyness - a prim and properness that is rare these days. Believe you me, not EVERYONE thinks grinding on the dance floor is attractive or appropriate. Next time you're in a social setting where people are doing things you are not comfortable with, politely excuse yourself to go to the washroom or make a phone call just to break up the anxiety setting in. Stay for the rest of the night. The more you're in a social situation, the better you'll get at it. You know what's right and comfortable for you. You don't have to join in just because all your peers are doing it. It doens't matter if you're 14 or 40. Be your own person and love yourself.