on-line relationships
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 139 views | 0 comments
I'm bored and lonely. I'm not attractive. I'm not young, I would go into chat rooms and no one interesting would talk to me because I'm oldish and un-pretty. A short time ago I decided to try an experiment, so I found a photo of an anonymous, lovely young woman who looks JUST the way I would like to look, if I had 3 wishes. I set up a new e-mail address and chat ID and profile which included the photo of this woman and some bogus information. Then I went into a chat room. WOW. Men were all over me. I loved it. It was fun, exciting and sexy. The photo, name, age and a few other small details were false, the only truth was, I used my own personality and mentioned that I'm from Hamilton County, Ohio. People liked me. I made some friends who are friends even now. Unfortunately, I also fell in love. It's gone waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too far. Photos, e-mails and phone calls. I sometimes think I'd sell my soul to actually BE this made-up girl, so I could marry this fantastic man. I have told him so many lies and made so many excuses as to why we cannot meet 'yet.' I feel horrible...but not so horrible that I can confess all this to him. I've debated about it, because I do love and respect him, and feel guilty for misleading him and getting his hopes up. I weighed his possible reactions to the truth. I'm too chicken to confess. What's even worse, I can't seem to stop this and he is not the only one I converse with.
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