Online affair
Posted Sep 26, 2012 by anonymous | 821 views | 4 comments
I am getting married in a month but for the past 8 months I had an online affair with someone I have never met in real life. I was ready to drop everything for this person who told me things that my fiance didn't. We met when I was questioning my relationship and engagement, When we crossed lines, I took a break from my fiance for a couple of months to sort this mess out. It was a painful experience for all 3 parties. J and I parted a few months ago, the wedding had to go on. I had to pick someone because the big day was drawing near. I picked my fiance but I still loved J. I still do, in a different way, not as a lover but he is someone special to me. He's a secret I will keep. It was a surreal period and no I did not regret it. J, I will always remember you until the end of my days as the spark that lit my life up during my darkest moments. I wish you love in everything you do. I am getting married in a matter of weeks. My fiance and I are in a better place and I chose him, so I will respect him as my husband and have cut all ties with J. I will give this marriage my all and if it fails, I know that I tried.
Commented Oct 2, 2012 by anonymous
Why did the wedding have to go on? It sounds like you would be better off either with J or with no one for now. L and I have known each other for a number of years now. But only through phone conversations, texts IMs and emails have I ever talked to her. We've never met as of yet because of distance. But the desire to consummate what we have together will draw us to the same bed whether I'm single or not.
Commented Sep 29, 2012 by Tattered Teddy
I would not be getting married if I were you. Sounds as if you cared more for J then for your husband-to-be and how is that fair?
Commented Sep 26, 2012 by anonymous
It was just an online talk, so forget that boy.
Commented Sep 26, 2012 by newday55
This story is very similar to mine in that I too had to choose between two women. Somedays I still don't know if I made the right choice. I'm giving my marriage all that I can but I still ache for another.