Oh OPPS. I lied.
Posted Dec 27, 2012 by Amber | 336 views | 9 comments
My razor didn't really cut did enough. .. Or long enough. So I moved onto those disposable men's razor blade. They're fucking so sharp I hardly have to press down. I haven't been able to cut recently because of swimming and winter break, but as soon as I get back to school and I don't have to wear that ridiculous onepiece anymore, I should be good. I missed seeing lines on my wrist. They give a comfort that alcohol or sex might give another person. Plus I hate seeing his face in my mind, or remembering his touch on my skin. Every cut is like everything I haven't spit and yelled in his face. And no, I was not raped. -.- Prayers to those who were.
Commented Dec 29, 2012 by Amber
Thank you thank you all who commented, thank you for giving me the attention I am so desperately seeking.! LIKE OMG I FEEEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW.^o^! Im catholic for who said to pray, And I do pray, I love my lord. Cutting is a mechanism for coping, and I use it as so. I don't cut everyday. And whenever I do cut, I always make sure to try and distract myself any other way beforehand. I suppose in a way, I shouldn't have made it sound as if I was being childish and that cutting isnt' something to take seriously. But I'm not going to pour my heart out about cutting, especially to a website that has so many negative people. I am not a full-on cutter, because of the fact I have been around so many 'love thy body' and 'self harm is disgusting' auras and groups. Its hard to develop a sense of total depression when you havent been completely traumatized. I believe that I have experienced something painful, and by cutting I am realized of that pain. That is why I cut. I apologize if I made it sound any other way.
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by anonymous
why don't you pray for yourself?
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by anonymous
and you are just a dumb ass! I'm sick of see you people that cut ur selfs!
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by anonymous
Find a different razor then.
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by anonymous
Cutting for pleasure/pain or cutting as a coping mechanism is what it is. But when you cut for show it's obvious, they go telling/showing everyone their ity bitty scars.
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by c u at the hoosegow
All teenagers want attention - you're not breaking any news here. Not all of them cut themselves to get it. If this one is really cutting, it shouldn't be dismissed.
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by anonymous
Attention Whores are pathetic.
Commented Dec 28, 2012 by anonymous
Just another teenaged drama queen that wants attention. It's almost cliche to be a cutter these days.
Commented Dec 27, 2012 by anonymous
This is sad to read. I wish there was something I could say that would convince you to stop.