I've come to see something here, it's something I'm surprised I didn't see sooner. Normal is just a illusion, something that people always think they are but they aren't, they're blinded by the wrong things. I now know that being normal is just being rude to people, mean and spiteful even if you don't know them or what they're going through. I even have a guy on my other confessions who tried telling me my life was a lie, that my harassment was a lie, that what I was saying about my family was a lie; it's just so sad to think that he lives in his own little world where he thinks he's "normal". I had multiple black kids at my middle school who would always ask me, "Why are you trying to act like you ain't black" and the reason they said this was because I didn't listen to rap. Apparently it was normal for African Americans to listen to that revolting music, but since it was the norm, apparently I was suppose to like it because everybody else liked it. But the more I look back on it, all the kids deemed as "normal" were complete assholes, always rude, doing drugs, drinking, smoking, fighting like there was no tomorrow, having sex, and having all these problems but yet they looked down on me because I wasn't doing what they were doing, I wasn't doing the "normal thing". As a fifteen year old girl I'm proud to say I'm not normal; I'm an Otaku, I love to read, I'm a virgin ( Never had sex, no first kiss, I'm pure as snow), I love the quietness of libraries, I love the old musty smell of some books, I love to read when it storms, I love to watch lightning flash, I love to cuddle with my significant other, I love imagination, I love exploring other cultures, I don't listen to rap that calls me a bitch over the lyrics or degrades me because of my gender, I was okay with being stuck inside, I actually liked and enjoyed learning most times, I never skipped school, and I didn't like going outside very much; I didn't care that they thought I was weird, I always though "I'd rather be a freak than be normal" but now I realize, there is no such thing as normal. Hell, normal doesn't even exist if you think about it! Society tries to hammer these expectations at us as if they know best, as if they know who we are. Hell, if their definition of normal means I have to be loud and obnoxious, I have to have more than one guy who I think may be my baby's father, if I have to blast revolting rap music in my ear, and all those other African American "norms" then I'd rather move some where else, I don't care if it's Australia where they have big spiders that can get as big a door, I want to go somewhere else where I don't have to worry about being normal or having to follow certain guidelines to be considered a person. Nobody should be aloud to tell other people that they have to do certain things to be something as stupid as "normal". I'd rather be a freak!