nobody to trust
Posted Apr 3, 2011 by anonymous | 606 views | 6 comments
I trust nobody. Not even my wife, my best friend, hardly myself. I run around with secrets I can't tell anyone. It's tormenting, because somehow it seems that those secrets have a need to come out and spread. Maybe this will help. Even though I am not even telling everything here. There's someone at work who likes to listen to my stories. It's horrible, because every time I talk to her I feel like I am spilling everything I don't want to spill. She sometimes talks about herself too, but I can never tell if that's trust or just deceit. In the meantime I share everything on facebook, only shit that doesn't matter. The real me inside is craving for some attention from someone. There's a woman at work who seems in love with me, but I can't be sure. I am flattered and fantasize about her, but I am just waiting for the feelings to pass, so I won't have a problem in my marriage. I still love my wife so much. I have no friends here, only in my home country, they're too far away... That's all.
Commented Aug 30, 2011 by anonymous
Those who do not trust others, do not trust themselves. You clearly are an asshole !
Commented May 29, 2011 by anant83031
convey this to ur wife somehow...dont tell the whole thing...give her only bits of info..that too slowly....u'll get relieved in the same manner...slowly..live ur life..trust ur wife..
Commented Apr 13, 2011 by MadeOfPain
Keeping secrets is the beginning of loss of faith and joy. For every secret you keep from your wife, you put a mile of emotional distance between the two of you. That can only lead to infidelity as you or her go to someone else for satisfaction and companionship. As someone who is going to similar pain, I should warn you not to let this run for too long. Create an atmosphere of trust in your home and work towards solving your trust issues.
Commented Apr 8, 2011 by CooliO
Hi Lonely, I think the problem here is not that you can't trust others. It is that you are homesick and can't find someone familiar to unburden to. Maybe your marriage has hit a rut. It's a common problem. And you are falling back to old securities from people you know, people who are far away at home now. My advice is to get away for awhile to sort out your thoughts. Talk to your wife; introduce a new spark of romance in your marriage; get a firm sense of direction after you clear your head. Life is life; you don't always get what you want but you make do with what you get.
Commented Apr 7, 2011 by anonymous
Its my experience that people who can't trust can't be trusted. :) Might want to think about that.
Commented Apr 3, 2011 by anonymous
sucks, you seem to be depressed, but dont worry, you can share here, you can be anonym or can create an account that does not have your name so you can follow up on your confessions. this can be the spot where you can open up your heart