It pretty much started back awhile ago when I noticed him checking them out of the corner of his eye. Strange but funny. And then one day when he was at my aptartment hanging out with me he asked if he could see them. Laughin and shocked I said no. He dropped the subject for then but I never told. I guess I should have though. He's started getting more aggressive when he comes to hang out. He told me once that he'd definetly see them some day. I kept laughling and teasing him nervously about the whole thing just hoping he would drop it. When that didn't work I tried telling him that if he'd just get a girlfriend and earn her trust he'd probably see hers in a year or two. He doesn't care. He says he wants to see mine mostly because their big. Id ignore him, and everything but he's not taking no for an answer. And last timr he came over he grabbed my wrist dragged me off the couch into my room pushing me onto the bed and pulling down my tank top/ bra straps. He's very strong actually. I pleaded for him to get off me and he said fine but he said he'd see them next time even if he had to do it by force. NOW here's were it gets problematic. I actually have molestation/sexual force trauma. When I was 11 my stepgrandpa held my head against his and forced me to french kiss him. When I was barely 14 a new (first day dating bf) just quickly ripped my top and bra down fondleling me while I stood frozen and freaked out after he left, and on a first/blind date the guy sat parked in his car with me and grabbed me by my hair and pulled my face onto his lap as he unzipped his pants. Even though I kept saying stuff like "stop" and "no" he forced me to deepthroat him for a little over half and hour releasing me only after he ejaculated in my mouth and then saw my eyes all tear filled. These experiences have oddly made me aroused of force porn and I have this adrenaline filled desire for some reason to keep putting myself in these terrifying situations. So if ur already putting two and two together the answer is yes. My strange confession is that I almost want my step brother to succeed. I have thought about it and found myself for some odd reason aroused. But what if he ends up wanting more. I know I wouldn't be prepared to carry on this type of relationship for the rest of our lives. But I confess that even though id struggle and beg him to stop eyes crying, I would never be able to scream or tell. I've never told about the other times. People view me as such an independent strong willed girl. I could have people seeing me as this twisted trauma fueled ho. So there we have it. He might just get away with everything he wants and I might just let it happen.