My self hatred is swallowing my life and I dont know what to do anymore.
Posted Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous | 323 views | 13 comments
This is extremely personal but, whenever I see my face in the mirror I get so depressed that I begin to cry and contemplate suicide.Ive even gone as far as no longer turning on lights when I enter bathrooms or rooms with mirrors, I havent turned on a light in my bathroom in over a year while showering,brushing my teeth, etc.I no longer consider myself a human being but instead, a monster; A disease. I no longer go out in public and if I do I wear a mask and only go out at midnight.I know that the world hates me, but nobody will ever hate me more than I hate myself.The one friend I do have says im handsome but I know that shes just lying to make me feel better.I wont date anyone because nobody should be THAT unlucky than to have to settle with such an abomination.Itd be even worse if I had kids which would mean Id poison the human genome wih my hills have eyes spawn.I hate my parents enough for creating me, id rather not be alive. I know that anonymity means youll all leave hate comments, just keep in mind that Sticks and stones may break my bones, so hit me as hard as you want to so I can die. Go ahead, leave your hate comments.Tear my worthless life to peices.
Commented Nov 13, 2013 by anonymous
I'm probably not the best advice giver, this site specially but i don't believe about everyone hating you .. but yeah it feels awful when your self esteem is so low that it breaks the ground open in to flames that when you look into a mirror all you see is self disgust ... you wouldn't date anyone because you don't want your pain suffering "disease" to be spread onto.. you don't seem to find a cure.. but sometimes you have the wrong glasses on..you're stuck in that one perspective :( but if you have a talent use it, if you don't then create one it doesn't matter if you fail ..for me there's no such thing it only takes one person to believe in you...and i believe you are better than yesterday.
Commented Nov 10, 2013 by anonymous
Not nice to talk to your master this way my little cocksucker!!!
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
Please don't give up you are a great person and have a lot to offer.
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
please shut up how dare you judge someone else's pain
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
FUCK YOU. YOU ARE A PIECE OF SHIT; A BIG STINKY ONE
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
what a load of bullshit!! if god loved him he would have made him look like brad pit, instead he's laughing his sick perverted face off at the ugly dude he created
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
It is not the right way to live a life like that.
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
a friend says you are handsome so you should be. all people are by the way. even if one believes he is not it is not all about appearane. if people assess me by the looks then simply to hell with people. turn the lights on and restart your life
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
It's okay if the world hates you...the world is cruel like that. But I hope you know that God loves you and always will, why would you kill yourself?
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
As long as it'll make you happy :/
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
LOL.Do the world a favor and kill yourself. XD
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
Ha you ever seen the hills have eyes 2?
Commented Nov 9, 2013 by anonymous
If she says that ur handsem im sure she means it.u cant look that bad??Much love OP :)