My family tells me I am too modest... The truth; I was raped and now I am afraid to be touched
Posted Apr 3, 2012 by anonymous | 473 views | 5 comments
My family tells me I am too modest... The truth; I was raped and now I am afraid to be touched by people. hugs? shaking hands? forget about it. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. When people accidently touch me I immediatly internalize my emotions. I feel weak, petrified and disgusted. I have been abused many times, in several foster homes, by both women and men. I was hardly 14 when I was raped, four months later I miscarried in a bathtub. I blocked out a lot of things, I don't remember much of that day. When my nephew tries to hug me I feel all messed up inside and mentally cringe. I try my best to hide it but these feeling have never stopped. I just do my best to hide it and pray no one notices.
Commented Apr 4, 2012 by anonymous
You must told your parents & family about this. The rapist must be in a jail.
Commented Apr 4, 2012 by anonymous
i would see a therapist that helped me
Commented Apr 3, 2012 by anonymous
Please get help.
Commented Apr 3, 2012 by anonymous
You'll be alright. But talke to someone! Touch is an important part of loving someone.
Commented Apr 3, 2012 by anonymous
You need to see a doctor fast.