well saturday night...i finally had the nuts to do it!!! ive been pretty much in love with my cousin, my first cousin!!!!. laurie is the most beautiful thing on the planet. short blonde, curly hair. perfect body. jsut amazing. she was the first girl i ever noticed when i knew what girls were...and have wanted her since. now this will probably sound awful i know....but i have been saving birthday money etc....jsut for her. for over 2 years. well saturday night i ran into her at this huge party...a school party. laurie is 2 yrs older than me, anyway...she and i hung around alot, drinking beer etc. well when the party broke up..we walked home together, as we live like 2 streets apart. well we got close to home, and i jsut said it....i guess it was the beer talking. but i told laurie that i thoguht she was the most beautiful girl in the world, and of course she was very taken back. i told her i wanted her more than anything in the world....even jsut once. she knew then what was up....and she asked me point blank if i wanted to have sex with her...and i told her yes. dead silence!! i wa sterrified!!! and the beer talked even more i guess....i told her i had an envelope at my house for her. of course i had to explain...i told her i had saved over 600$ to offer her ....and i was expecting her to flip out on me. but she wasnt mad....she was amazed i sabed money to pay her for sex. i told her id get it for her. she thought i wasl ying...and said if i showed her over 600$ then shed do it.....yeah baby!!! so we walked to my house, i snuck in and got it while she waited outside. i gave her the envelope...and she was dead silent counting the money. 643$. she asked me again....if it was hers...and i said hell yes. and her exact words were" ok...what the hell". laurie and i walked to the woods by my house..it was like 230am too and we were both pretty drunk. so we went into the woods..and it was scary as hell for me. i was so nervous. she put the money in her pocket and we jsut kind of looked at each other.....and she started it. she touched my crotch and then i grabbed her butt and kissed her. we made out for a long time. laurie even confessed that she thoguht i was hot. and of course..this was our secret!!! well i stripped her naked and she was perfect!!! she let me worship her full round firm butt for the longest time..and it was delicious!!! laurie and i had sex in the woods twice. she let me put it anywhere i wanted....and it was by far the best thing ive ever done. i talked to her after school today for the first time. we now have a deal in place. she is trying to save for college, and ill help her;) every penny of my after schol job will go to laurie...and i do not regret it one bit. i know alot of people will think im awful..but i cant help how i feel about her