i was on holiday at my grandparents house. we usually go every summer and the whole family comes over. I was 18 at the time any my older cousin lola was 22, there was a few other cousins there inculding her brother. since lola was 18 she had the biggest, roundest tits i had seen at the time and i was affectionate towards her. on the night before everyone was going to leave we. sat out on the balcony and were telling scary stories. i sat against the wall and lola sat in front of my open legs and lay against me. i could feel her shivering so i thought i would put my arms around her to keep her warm, so i put my arms around her neck and my hands were just above her big boobs, i resist in cupping her breasts. it got a bit colder so we all went inside and continued to tell stories. I sat up against the sofa and lola again came and sat between my open legs and grab my arms and put them round her neck again. this was a little strange I was like what is she doing. but i went along with it, the lights in the room where off so i decided to see how close to her vagina i could get my hands. i slowly worked my way down and finally got there, she didnt flinch once or even try and move my hands away, at this point i was hard and unaware if she could feel my dick on her back. i was ever so gently moving my finger up and down are her clit area andand still nothing. so everyone called it a night but i said i wasnt really tired and lola also said the same. so everyone went to sleep and we went out on the balcony. we talk but i didnt want to bring up what i was doing before and it got a little cold again, we made our way inside and we lay on my bed in a spooning position. i was rubbing her stomach and i went down towards her pussy. i started rubbing it again just up and down. i could hear her breathe increase and become heavy and before i know it she grabbed my hand and was trying to finger her own pussy with my hand, she started pushing her ass against my dick and i was slightly pushing back and this continued for a bit. all this fingering was going on while she still had her shorts on. she would open her pussy and i would get fingertips in as well as her pants. after a while i removed my hand and tried to go into her pants to finger her properly and really get my fingers wet. but as soon as i went down her pants and past her stubbly pubes she grabbed my hand and said no i think i should go now. so we left it. the next morning we continued like nothing had ever happened and we said our good byes. two years later she is now getting engaged. I still want to see her naked and see ask her what that night was all about. but too nervous to ask her about it, was it just foolish teenage hormones?