This is my first time going into full detail, ever. when I was 11 years old, my mother was constantly gone taking care of my terminally ill grandmother. She left my oldest brother in charge of my younger brother and I when she would go. One day, we were all hyper, watching tv when something stupid came on. Some commercial for Victoria Secret, I think and we started making jokes. Mind you, we were 11 and 10. My oldest brother was 16. We walked all sexy towards him and acted like the super models. I guess it got him fired up because he kept having me sit in his lap and continue "playing" this game. I went to my room not long after that because I had felt something odd about what had just happened. He appeared in my doorway a few moments later and I could see his pajamas bulging forward. He shut my door and I asked where our other brother was. He said, downstairs watching tv. Figures, the kid is fucking glued to the screen. Anyway, he started towards me and tensed up a little. He tried to make it as much of a game as he could but I knew that something wasn't right. He laid down on my bed and had me straddle him. I sat there awkwardly, not knowing what was going to happen. He grabbed my hips and started moving me back and forth. I could feel something hard and warm and huge, sliding between my thighs, he adjusted me lower down. He lifted my night gown just a little so my panties were showing. I stared straight forward, stiff and confused but also curious. Then I felt that warm throbbing sensation against my clit. He rocked me back and forth, making me really grind down against him. All the while I'm feeling tingling I've never felt and I liked it. Then I became embarrassed and started squirming to get off of him. He grabbed on tighter and rubbed against me so hard and fast, my panties got wet and then he slowed down. This was getting intense as he flipped me over quickly and climbed on top. He grabbed himself through his pajamas and directed it perfectly against my clit and began to rub in slow circle motions, I was squirming and holding back moans afraid that someone might hear and walk in. Suddenly it stopped, I thought I was about to pee myself. He leaned back off of me and sat for a moment. then he said, this is our play time, I'll show you my toys and you can show me yours and no one else can play. Ok? I nodded and he got up and left. The rest of the night I stayed in my room with the door locked. I questioned if I should speak up, if anyone would believe me, I didn't want to put this pain on my mother. It felt really good too, what was that? Touch myself there and see if I can make that same tingling but no. Almost every night he would grab my hand and say, I got a new toy, wanna check it out? And take me upstairs. He continued on with rubbing against me for a while, then he started taking off my clothes. He would go under my shirt and suck on my nipples, I didn't even have my breasts yet. Finally he called me into his room one night, he had his back facing me and he turned around. He dropped his bath towel and right in my face was the biggest cock I have ever seen, to this day. He had a huge bush and it was unkempt, it was hard and shooting straight out from his body. I gasped and turned to leave. he rushed the door and shut it quickly and asked what was wrong. Don't you like this toy? Its the same one but now you can see it. The sheer size and monstrosity of it was enough to scar me mentally, I must have blacked out from the pain of insertion into my virgin vagina because I woke up in the morning, bed sheets bloody and when I touched myself down there it felt sore. My mom thought it was my first period. that's my story. We don't speak any more and no one had heard from him in years.