My boyfriend is violent
Posted Aug 7, 2013 by anonymous | 289 views | 5 comments
My boyfriend is like the Longfellow poem about the little girl with a curl in the middle of her forehead---when he is good he is very good indeed, but when he is bad he is horrid. He drinks to excess and then becomes violent and aggressive towards me at the drop of a hat. It used to entail just yelling, then it became throwing and damaging our things as well. Now a year later, I am being tossed around like a rag doll and I fear it can only get worse if it continues. After giving me a stone bruise he has sworn off drinking, but I believe he has Intermittent Explosive Disorder, an antisocial personality disorder that begins as ADD in children and is fueled by violent home life during developmental years. I firmly believe it is IED because of the claims that "it's like I'm not me when I'm like that", "I feel it come on like a wave", and the immediate remorse for having these outbursts. I recognized these symptoms and encouraged professional help (which he is open to when calm), because I myself have Borderline Personality Disorder and have therapy and prescribed meds. But I must say the bulk of the symptoms for BPD is "unstable interpersonal relationships characterized by dramatic events". So I'm trying to decide if I should stay or go, and what role my illness is playing in that decision. His mother died at a very young age and his father is "whereabouts unknown". He claims to have untreated ADHD and has used the excuse numerous times that he doesn't know how to deal with problems without hostility because that is how he was raised by his step-parents. He is going to a doctor today to ask about medications and a referral to a psych-therapist. Am I delusional myself, thinking that he is getting help and that we can do this?
Commented Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous
He needs to beat the shit out of you, bitch.
Commented Aug 7, 2013 by anonymous
thats the excuse used be all abusers and abusees. you can stay and get beat. or go and most likely get a restraining order. all of your illnezess are fucking fake ass labels for lack of self control.
Commented Aug 7, 2013 by anonymous
in other words,,,,, you got nowhere else's to go, you're a hs dropout & your self esteem is on the ground
Commented Aug 7, 2013 by anonymous
no kids. just unconditional love and an immense desire to underline my convictions with courage in the face of adversity. this is not a question of should i stay or should i go--but rather a question of "am i staying only because it validates my own illness?"
Commented Aug 7, 2013 by anonymous
you have kids w him? if not nothing is holding u there if ya stay ya deserve if for being fucking stupid